Editing Fainéant Girl

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| <big>'''⚠ Trigger Warning:''' This song contains themes of internal and external ableism, suicidality, self-hatred, and general sickness/illness. Please proceed with caution</big>!
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== About ==
"Fainéant Girl" is the 4th song on the album, first released on YouTube on March 4, 2022. The song centers around [[Freyja Maria Mendoza]]. It also features [https://synthv.fandom.com/wiki/Tsuina-chan Tsuina-chan], a Synthesizer V voice database.

== Lyrics ==
[Verse 1]<br>
I got sick<br>
And I won't be getting well<br>
They told me there was nothing wrong, as far as they could tell<br>
<br>
Oh well<br>
Guess they can't tell very far<br>
I have to be my own clinician, write my own memoir<br>
<br>
With a body and a brain so sickening<br>
Practitioners find it not worth fixing<br>
I'm scared I'm gonna lie down one day<br>
And never get back up again<br>
<br>
[Pre-Chorus]<br>
(It's written down on paper, you can't call yourself a faker)<br>
(It's all true now, what'll you do now?)<br>
<br>
[Chorus]<br>
They don't tell stories about people like me<br>
'Cause what is there to tell?<br>
5pm naps and childproof caps<br>
My best friends, Adderall and Elavil<br>
<br>
(A life sentence served and my body's the cell)<br>
(No, I don't need to die to know that this is hell)<br>
<br>
[Verse 2]<br>
If only I knew how much time I had left<br>
Maybe it would've been spent a bit more wise<br>
And no, I know, it's not like I died<br>
But it's hard to call what's left of me "alive"<br>
<br>
I forget I'm an adult all the time<br>
'Cause my body gave up when I was so young<br>
And now I go throughout life puppet-ing my own corpse<br>
My own memory, a less alive kind of me<br>
<br>
'Cause the cells in my organ systems organized<br>
For my involuntary parasuicide<br>
And I swallowed my pride, left my old life behind<br>
But to say I survived, it just feels like a lie<br>
<br>
[Chorus]<br>
They don't tell stories about people like me<br>
'Cause what is there to tell?<br>
5pm naps and childproof caps<br>
My best friends, Adderall and Elavil<br>
<br>
(A life sentence served and my body's the cell)<br>
(If I'm already dead yet or not, I can't tell)<br>
<br>
[Verse 3]<br>
I'm tired when I wake up, when I'm opening my eyes<br>
When I'm not feeling low, I get tired out by the highs<br>
I'm tired when I go out, when I'm trying to exist<br>
But if I don't, I get tired thinking about the things I missed<br>
<br>
I'm tired, just tired, that's all I ever say<br>
Because I'm tired of my illnesses making me act this way<br>
Tired of being jealous of everybody that's close to me<br>
No, they can't help they're not diseased<br>
That's not the way they chose to be<br>
<br>
I miss a life I never had, the everything I could've been<br>
I hope they never have to understand the kind of pain I'm in<br>
The people that I thought I could trust berated me, like that'd help<br>
"You need to pull your weight", when I was trying not to kill myself<br>
<br>
You tried to give me "tough love" and then wondered why I got so cold<br>
The shit I hid to keep you happy, you don't even wanna know<br>
<br>
[Chorus]<br>
They don't tell stories about people like me<br>
'Cause what is there to tell?<br>
5pm naps and childproof caps<br>
My best friends, Adderall and Elavil<br>
<br>
(A life sentence served and my body's the cell)<br>
(At the mercy of malfunctioning organelles)<br>
<br>
[Verse 4]<br>
Shaking uncontrollably, my Ibuprofen mornings<br>
(And my prophets are Ramsay and Shepherd and Bell)<br>
Nobody would listen, my body was trying to warn me<br>
(And there's only so much medication can help)<br>
<br>
Doctors said it was somatic, you all thought I was dramatic<br>
(And it's nobody's fault, just the cards that you're dealt)<br>
Yeah, you meant well, but that doesn't mean that it wasn't traumatic<br>
(I got sick and I won't ever be getting well)<br>
<br>
Now I only hope I don't keep on degenerating<br>
Shorter life expectancy, I might as well embrace it<br>
Take my medication, get wasted, music-making while I'm sedated<br>
Call that crossfaded<br>
<br>
Hey, look ma, I made it<br>

== Sources ==
* [https://genius.com/Weevildoing-faineant-girl-lyrics WeevilDoing - Fainéant Girl Lyrics | Genius Lyrics]